August 12, 2011

I know I know boring title.. but I don't know what to put.. oh well..

So I've been wanting to tell about my AWESOME night with my Wonderful Hubby :-D

So Saturday August 6 was a busy day.
My niece Brianna got married. Oh she was So beautiful & so Happy :-) It was a little ceremony mostly just family, siblings aunts uncles & close friends. I don't know how the reception went cuz that is when Randy & I left for our date that turned out to be the most fun we've had in along time (not counting memorial weekend ;-) )

For my Birthday/Mother's Day Randy got me Tim McGraw concert tickets & oh What a FANTASTICALLY AWESOME Night it was.. it was like reality & worries took a step to the side & let me ENJOY myself & have a good time with a WONDERFUL Guy & some good music. I did not want the night to end but Randy had to go to work the next day.

Sunday August 7 EJ walked for the first time on her own without me or Randy helping. It was so cute

Monday August 8 was a good day. Went & visited awhile with a couple of friends then went to have lunch with them at the park. After everyone left the kids wanted to go to another park to play. We had so much fun. :-)

Tuesday August 9 was a little crazy. EJ had been fussy ALL night up at 2am & felt like up every 1-2 hrs. Turns out it was a start of an ear infection. Later we meet up with Randy at the DI, he found a curio cabinet for $18 then we went to McDonald's for dinner. I had to leave for my councilling. I told her about this "blog" & she told me it's good for me to get how I'm feeling down. I think it will be a good thing.

Wednesday August 10 RE went to the dentist. His adult tooth was growing in behind his Baby teeth & his baby tooth wasn't lose. They ended up pulling all front 4.. poor little guy.. he sounds so cute. The boys had a birthday party to go to.. which they had fun at. Then we went & visited Grandma Great (Randy's Grandma)

Thursday August 11 This day was my honey's Birthday & kinda an unfun day for me.. I was in sooo much pain I was miserable ALL day.. I tried to push it to the side & carry on with my day.. did ok but boy oh boy.. (wont go into much detail kinda gross) But I'm pretty sure randy had a good day.. he found his Cowboy's preseason game on TV so he was watching that & I made him his favorite food Tacos & Brownies with cookies on top mmmm yummy. Oh & his Cowboy's Won!! YAY!! Yes it was just preseason but it was a win.

Now today Friday August 12 I woke up feeling worse then I did yesterday. I texted Randy telling him everything that was going on.. he said what I was thinking So I called my Dr. I went in & got blood work done. Was told to go home & rest especially since I was feeling weak.. so now the waiting game.. I was hoping I'd find out today & not Monday cuz that would be a very VERY long weekend. Time felt like it was ssslllooowwwlllyyy going by. I was suppose to rest but couldn't to much on my mind. So my phone rang saw it was my Dr office was anxious.. but disappointed they were reminding me of my appt on Mon. Few hrs went I noticed the time, it was after 5pm & I was sad now it means I had to wait for Monday. It was a little before 6 & SA brought me my phone cuz it was ringing & it was my Dr office. Then That's when I got the news. The news I had a strong feeling about & I couldn't stop thinking about since the 11. Something I can't stop thinking about. I know it's not my fault. I know I didn't do anything to make it happen. I know there isn't anything I could've done to make it not happen. It isn't up to me.. it's up to God & only he knows why this happened. But it's kinda hard to not let it get to me & hurt inside & cry.. For those who can't figure out what I'm talking about.. the blood work informed me I was pregnant.. the physical pain I've been in is me losing the baby. I'm not sure how far along I didn't think to ask.

Anyways.. it's 12am so I'm gonna end now & try & get some sleep
Goodnight All
~oHUGSo~